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Hello semua.
Hari ni I rasa nak taip dalam BM.
Okay kan?
Today I tak buat apa-apa, I duduk rumah saja.
I habiskan masa dengan watching 5 DVDs and now I sakit kepala.
Sengaja cari masalah.
Mummy minggu depan baru balik rumah.
I need to be independent again.
I don't want Mummy to worry about me.
I think I'm okay now being alone.
At least I got some friends who wanna spend time with me at home.
Btw, my new draft is approved. Thank God. :)
I need to get something to eat.
Take care all. Bye.

XOXO
-Cammy-

I know I haven't been updating for sometime.
There's so much work at the moment.
My plan to watch movies in cinema is still a plan.
Mummy is always busy with outstation and I have to do all chores alone.
My eating schedule, no, it's no longer a schedule.
I eat once a day, and sometimes I even miss my meal.
God, please let Mummy finish her work earlier.
Then we both can spend our time together.
I always feel like an orphan since Mummy chose to concentrate on her work.
It seems like blogging is not my world anymore.
I don't know what to blog about.
Without Mummy by my side, nothing looks right.
Mummy, come home.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Updating...
Happy Friday everyone!
Weekend is just around the corner.
My draft is rejected by the lecturer this morning.
The reason: the issue is not very contemporary.
Nvm, gonna spend the weekend working on another draft with classmates.
What's your plan for this weekend?
I wanna watch films in cinema, will check the schedule first.
I always spend time watching DVDs, I miss going to cinema. =p
Btw, I notice that the ads are seldom coming out nowadays, why hah?
Hope everything is okay.
I'm planning to sleep now, so sleepy and it's raining here.
Have fun. :)

XOXO
-Cammy-

d= ¡ʇɐǝɹ⅁ ˙ʍou uʍop ǝpısdn suɹnʇ pɐǝɥ ʎƜ ˙unɟ os s,ʇI ˙ǝsǝɥʇ sɐ ɥɔns sʇxǝʇ pǝsɹǝʌǝɹ ǝʞɐɯ oʇ ǝɯ sʍoןןɐ ʇɐɥʇ ǝʇıs ɐ punoɟ ʇsnɾ I ¡⅁ƜO 

XOXO
-Cammy-

Since I got nothing to do and I'm not at all sleepy, I wanna look for some interesting pictures on the internet.
Bear with me k?
It's so boring now and I'm hungry so I just wanna forget this feeling of hunger by wasting my time.
The pictures below are actually telling you my recent condition.

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Hello people!
Just woke up.
I don't know what went wrong with me.
I'm not a type of person who sleeps early and wakes up in the middle of the night like this.
I didn't do much since morning, but then I felt so tired.
I haven't eaten anything since lunch.
I'm so hungry now and there's nothing to eat at the kitchen.
I'll make a cup of hot chocolate later, just to kill this hunger.
And remember the first contest that I joined?
I didn't win. :(
Not my luck, yet, I guess.
It's okay since this is the first contest that I've joined as a blogger.
Happy though because it's like a platform for me to enter more contests.
Will go blogwalking and clicking ads in half an hour.
Wanna take a bath now, I'm still sleepy.
Wait k? :)

XOXO
-Cammy-

Hello people!
How are you today?
I'm good and happy btw. Hehe...
So tired, have just finished class at 11.
Had lunch with two friends until 12 and now, back at home.
Got one big assignment to do, must at least present a draft by this Friday.
I've watched Titanic (again =p) last night while waiting for Nuff to wake up.
The first film ever that successfully made me fall in love with the main actor.
Haha...
Lucky me, it was years ago. Jack Dawson is no longer attractive.
Review? Don't have to, you can find many from the internet.
Wanna watch Avatar in 3D, haven't yet got the chance.
James Cameron is really cool in making superb movies.
Btw, Avatar is criticised for being racist and the 3D spec is actually harmful to people's health.
Perhaps I should think twice before finally buy the ticket.
Have fun everyone.
Wanna read a novel now.

XOXO
-Cammy-

It's so boring today.
I wanna go out but everyone is busy with their loved ones i.e. boyfriends/girlfriends.
Mummy has gone out so early this morning.
She left sandwiches for me.
I ate nothing else.
So hungry yet so lazy to go out.
Sleepy but don't wanna sleep since it's very hot here.
What should I do to kill this boredom?
Any suggestion?
Happy weekend people.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Buat pertama kali nak buat Give Away kat blog personal ni...biasanye contest atau give away kat blog KedaiGambarKami jek..Sempena tahun baru dan untuk menghargai kawan2 blogger , Give Away ni dibuka mulai sekarang sehingga 18 Januari sahaja. Kenapa cepat sgt tutup?sebab kalau lambat2 kang expired lak kalender ni..ni dah bulan Januari kan..kalendar ni sweet dan cute...sesuai utk peminat kucing atau org yang suke tgk gmbr kucing...

Syarat2 dia mudah je...

1.Tak perlu buat blog entry (tapi dialu2kan). -----> i did!
2.Tak perlu jadi follower (dialu2kan juga). -----> i did!
3.Cuma tampal banner di atas pada side bar anda, di atas sekali supaya senang sy nampak. Linkkan ke blog ini.Kalau ade iklan Nuffnang kat side bar tu, letak kat bwh nuffnang ye..:) -----> done!
4.Bila dah siap, tinggalkan permalink anda di bhgn komen entry ni..(link entry tersebut ye). -----> done!
5.Itu saja..2 orang pemenang akan ditentukan dengan Random.org. -----> could i be one?

Sedikit preview gambar kalendarnye...

Remember the other day I told you that I wanted to blog on something in our mother tongue?
Here's the entry.
A million apologies if the title sounds controversial, but frankly, I never mean to be rude or racist.
I befriend all people from all ethnic groups, I never put a racial boundary in friendships.
Okay, back to my first intention i.e. to write in Malay.
I really hope I can convey my message clearly.
But, can I use both languages? Just allow me to do so, okay?
One fine day, a happy day I shall say, I went to fetch a friend at the LRT station.
While waiting for her, I saw a man who looked like a father and husband.
I guessed his age, perhaps around 30s.
Lelaki ini tengah bentang kain atas meja.
Kereta dia ada tepi jalan.
Selepas tu, dia angkat beberapa plastik yang di dalamnya ada bekas macam Tupperware dan letak di atas meja tadi.
Jadi saya anggap lelaki itu baru mahu mula berniaga.
Kereta saya berada berdekatan dengan meja lelaki tadi.
Saya rasa dia mahu jual kuih-kuih.
Sewaktu masih angkat plastik-plastik dari keretanya, datang 2 orang lelaki yang kalau kamu lihat, kamu pun tahu mereka Melayu.
Lelaki yang mahu jual kuih tadi juga Melayu.
Mereka bertiga seperti dalam keadaan yang agak serius, 2 lelaki Melayu itu tanya macam-macam pada peniaga tadi dan mereka menulis di atas kertas.
Muka lelaki berniaga nampak sedih.
Tiba-tiba saja dia angkat semula plastik-plastik tadi ke dalam kereta.
Dia mengemas kain, meja dan kerusi yang dia bawa.
Walaupun tak tahu hal sebenar tapi saya rasa sangat marah.
Saya fikir 2 lelaki Melayu tadi tak benarkan lelaki Melayu lagi seorang untuk berniaga di sana.
Tapi 2 lelaki Melayu itu tak pakai uniform pekerja LRT.
Saya tak tahu siapa mereka sebenarnya dan saya juga tak tahu apa hak mereka menghalang lelaki peniaga untuk berniaga di sana.
Hati saya sangat sedih sewaktu lihat lelaki peniaga angkat kembali barang-barangnya.
Saya turun dari kereta dan terus pergi ke 2 lelaki Melayu yang wajahnya agak sombong.
Saya terus bertanya kenapa lelaki peniaga angkat barang-barangnya selepas mereka datang berjumpa dia.
2 lelaki Melayu beritahu tak boleh berniaga di kawasan LRT dan mereka minta lelaki peniaga pergi tempat lain.
Saya sangat marah dan tak faham.
Kalau orang India atau Cina pasti mahu tolong sesama kaum.
Ada juga orang Melayu yang pasti mahu tolong orang Melayu juga.
Kawan-kawan saya semuanya datang dari kumpulan etnik yang berbeza tetapi kami selalu tolong-menolong dalam semua perkara.
Kenapa 2 lelaki Melayu yang bukan polis atau pekerja LRT itu tak mahu tolong lelaki Melayu yang mahu mencari rezeki tadi?
Pada saya, keadaan ini tak patut berlaku.
Tapi saya bukan orang kenamaan, saya tak dapat tolong lelaki Melayu tadi.
Sampai sekarang ini, saya masih tak dapat lupakan wajah sedihnya.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Good morning everyone!
It's cold and breezy here, I don't need to switch on the air conditioner but I still need comforter to warm me up.
A happy day because I have no class to attend to.
Planning to do some house chores. *to impress Mummy. =p
She's always busy and I'm also busy with classes and routines.
Since there's no academic obligation for me to fulfil today, it can be a good start.
Thanks to Ieyna and Nina for their advices and motivation in the previous entry.
I think and I'm sure that I'm okay now.
And I suddenly remember that I once said I'd talk about something which I wanted to use Malay language as a medium.
Will find some time for that and also for Ieyna's tag.
Is there anyone who wanna tag me? Haha...
I just ask because I can do all tags at once. =p
Happy Friday.

XOXO
-Cammy-

The most tiring day ever.
I just wanna close my eyes and suddenly wake up on a magnificent picturesque island, ALONE.
I'm sick of some people's attitudes and yet I have no confidence to tell them to just get out of my life.
I've been so kind to them but now they obviously show that they are just making profits out of our so-called friendship.
Why should you guys be so self-absorbed and self-centred?
What's wrong with making changes?
Just because I no longer wanna spend time with all of you, you think you have the right to break our friendship off?
I'm still your friend no matter what.
I only ask you guys to at least accept the fact that clubbing is not my world.
We have so many other places to go, to have some fun, yet you still think the best place to hang out is clubs, pubs, discos etc.
No wonder Farah didn't wanna inform you guys about her changes.
I now realise that all of you will simply ask Farah to leave Haikal if you know he's the one who asks her to wear 'tudung'.
My life is not your life.
If I wanna change, I'll change.
You can't stop me.
If you really wanna stop and end our relationship, go on.
I'd never stop you from doing so.
Don't come and beg me for anything since this is not the first time the three of you betraying me only for a small matter.
From now on, I'll train myself to be extra cold towards people who always think this whole world moves because of them.

XOXO
-Cammy-

I now have a favicon for my blog.
Thanks to Izzah Farhana for her tutorial which I found on her blog.
Still looking for many icons to select, have tried two at the moment.
My activity today? Stay at home while enjoying my online life. =p
Plan to go out but just too lazy.
Need to buy some stuffs, haven't gone out for more than a week.
Got something to tell, but in the next entry.
My views on Malays. I'm not generalising, I'll write based on what I saw.
And I really hope I'll be able to write about this in Bahasa Malaysia.
See you! :)

XOXO
-Cammy-

Heading to bed in any minute.
Good night all.
I'm not happy with everything right now.
I think... lemme tell you tomorrow or in the next entry.
Stop for tonight.

XOXO
-Cammy-

A Malay friend called this morning.
She hasn't contacted me for quite sometime.
The conversation went like this, only the gist of everything.

Farah: Cam, got time for me?
Cammy: Ya, why? Got something to share?
Farah: I've changed. I don't know whether you and the girls will like it or not.
Cammy: You've changed to something bad hah? If so, of course we won't like it. Just tell me lah.
Farah: I'm wearing 'tudung' now.
Cammy: Good for you then. I like it. What makes you think we'll hate you because of that?
Farah: Dunno, maybe you guys will be embarrassed to hang out with me. *laughing*
Cammy: No lah. We can still go out what? Btw, what moves you?
Farah: Haikal.
Cammy: What? Haikal is a what or a who? You're kidding?
Farah: No. Haikal said he wants me to wear 'tudung' and he thinks I'm prettier with 'tudung'.
Cammy: Ooo... if you wanna do as what he says or likes, go on. If you're worried about our friendship, nothing will change. We're your friends and you're our friend. Don't forget till death do us part. *laughing*
Farah: Thanks a lot Cam. Got to go. Will call you later. Bye.

End of conversation. Me? Speechless.
Since Farah doesn't know this blog (as what I thought), I think it's okay to write down our conversation.
My principle: Do anything you wanna do, only when your mind and heart really wanna do it.
I used to have few friends, male and female, who liked to change or do some improvements on themselves just because their loved ones wanted them to.
In the end, when they broke up, all reverted to their old ways, styles, lives etc.
For me, about wearing 'tudung', as a Muslim, you should know your responsibility.
I can't tell you you must wear 'tudung'. It's a basic thing as a Muslim woman, you don't need people to tell you such thing.
But, by doing something good only for people, and not for religions, it may not last longer.
Ya, it can be permanent, I don't deny the fact, but it can also be temporary.
Don't you think so?
This is an open question, you can think about it in any ways you want.
All the best Farah. Hope you and Haikal will be happy.
I love you no matter what.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Was thinking of what to write while talking to Ieyna just now.
A big part of my heart asks me to at least jot something here, for the sake of giving breath to this blog after leaving it alone for almost a week.
I've checked my Nuffnang account just now and the earning has been updated.
That's my first online income and I don't even have any reason for joining Nuffnang.
I did so since I figured out that I can make many new friends via Nuffnang, only by clicking their ads.
Nice right?
I don't have to go out, I just stay in front of this laptop and I get friends.
No more clubbing, hanging out, shopping or any wasting time activities.
I think 2010 has really changed me.
I'm of course somewhat separated from my chill out friends.
The last activity I did with them was the pillow party.
I find no tranquility in doing my routines, my former usual routines.
I'm in a phase of finding my true self. I think I don't even know my own self.
Changing friends, activities, routines etc, hoping all of these make me happy.
Good night.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Hello bloggers, happy Monday!
Miss me?
Sorry, I was really busy last week.
So many things needed my full focus and attention.
I'm okay now, no more fever.
I miss blogging so much and I miss writing on this blog.
Thanks for those who have dropped by, I've just finished visiting your sites.
Really hoping that there'll be no more serious works after this since I need a silent space for myself.
Will write more tomorrow.
Have fun and be happy.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Hello bloggers.
Am so sorry for not being able to be 24/7 in front of the laptop.
Got so many things to do at the moment.
Plus, I got fever.
Ya, I know. Not a good combination.
Am really hoping I'll be okay as soon as possible.
And wanting to be online as usual.
Right now I'm using Mummy's laptop, she's gone to her friend's house.
All alone again, as usual.
Mummy doesn't know anything about this blog.
I have to erase everything (history, password reminder etc) after typing this post.
Wanna tell you many stories but time doesn't allow me to do so.
Btw thanks so much to all bloggers who have come to my blog and clicked my ads.
I'll visit your blog later and click your ads also.
So sorry ya.
Bye and good night.

XOXO
-Cammy-

I've stumbled upon my ex-bestfriend's blog just now.
Suddenly all the pains that she has inflicted on me during our high school days come to mind.
My heart is full of anger and rage.
Though I'm happy with my current life, I can't forget what she did to me.
My heart and my life were torn apart, scattered by pieces.
Worse when I couldn't focus for SPM.
Lucky me I got good result and now am living a bright future.
Thanks to Mummy whom once I hated most, for bringing sunshine to my life at that moment.
Because of that ex-bestfriend, I never had and still don't have a real bestfriend.
I can never make myself to believe and love friends more than I should.
My shopping friends are just friends, people whom I share my happiness, but never my sadness.
I've learnt not to reveal everything about me because I believe now that people will bite.
I hate her for everything that has happened to me.
I wasted a bit of my high school life only to figure out what went wrong with our friendship.
I didn't only ask other people, but I also went to see her just to clear things out.
She didn't have the answers, she hated me, she betrayed me, she deceived me and yet she didn't know what made her act like that.
It was all my bitter past.
I've never thought of her, not even once after I finished high school.
And just now, I unconsciously viewed her blog while blogwalking.
Thank God I saw nothing about her that's able to tear my heart apart.
I'm happy with my life.
I hate her but I'm happy seeing and reading about her life.
She has everything and yet she has nothing.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Hello bloggers, I'm back! :)
About the party, it was fun, hilarious also.
I made the first mistake because I didn't wear the right pyjamas.
I wore red pyjamas, but other girls wore white.
The pyjamas did have a small white portion, but it still didn't fulfil the requirement.
I was so unlucky since the friend who organised this girls' heart to heart session wanted to reward a person with the most stunning outfit, and obviously I didn't win.
Arrgghh. :(
And the prize was a very beautiful shawl.
Not my luck. Yet.
Am still waiting for bloggers who wanna exchange links with me. :)
Good night.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Hello bloggers.
This is a short and quick update.
I may not be able to go online tonight as I've promised my friend that I'll spend the night at her house.
Gonna have a girls' heart to heart session.
She's organising a pillow party, something like that, still need to consult her on this.
I'm quite excited because I got nothing to do at home.
But I'll try to find some time to go online, blogwalking and clicking nuff.
See you guys! Have a happy and wonderful weekend with your loved ones.
Btw, if you wanna exchange links with me, you can drop your links at the post below.
Bye.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Hello bloggers.
I'm so happy because you've come to my blog which is now 3 days old.
I don't really know about exchanging links and banners.
Maybe I need about a month to figure out everything about blogging.
I wanna ask your favour.
Can you put your links in the comment section of this entry?
I'll check your links and if they are appropriate (by this term I mean your contents), I'll include them on my blog.
Maybe we can exchange links, but it's not compulsory.
Do say whatever you wanna say in the comment section.
Thanks.

XOXO
-Cammy-

I wanna write something but nothing comes out.
As suggested by Suraya, I went blogwalking.
Found a blog, I think the owner is Farenova and she talked about Idola Kecil finale.
Though I'm not fond of Malaysia's reality shows, but that can be a way to kill this boredom.
Btw, I'm currently making love with reading Lord of the Flies, an interesting novel by William Golding.
That's all.

XOXO
-Cammy-

I just stay at home today.
Can't go out because of the heavy rain.
Don't like the idea of driving while raining.
I'm not a good and expert driver.
I'm still looking forward to meet few friends by this week and it's already Saturday.
It's very boring to be alone at home, though sometimes I'm very keen for privacy.
And it's very awkward when I start treating this blog as a diary.
Have no idea now.

XOXO
-Cammy-

I realise that I should have posted this earlier, but I forgot about this entry.
Why chose http://cammycamelia.blogspot.com/?
I actually have thought of many different blog addresses earlier.
But just because I wanted to create this blog on my 20th birthday, some of the URLs have been picked out.
I don't really like the idea of putting my own name as my blog address, but by combining both nick and real names, it sounds better.
That's what I thought. Don't worry, you don't have to agree with me.
I wanna share some URLs that have crossed my mind.
1) mygreatmasterpiece
2) greatmasterpiece
3) virtualnotebook
4) littlemasterpiece
Unfortunately, all these addresses belong to other people.
I like my current URL nonetheless.

XOXO
-Cammy-

In order to be and look normal, here's a new year entry.
Happy New Year 2010.
May all of you have a wonderful year ahead.
May all your 2009 resolutions come true.
Hope you're ready with your 2010 resolutions.
All the best.

I've changed my blog template.
Hope you'll still like it.

XOXO
-Cammy-

I'm gonna change my template.
Though I like the current one, I can't do anything about the comments section.
I want people to easily see the comments part on each entry.
Goodbye my first template.

XOXO
-Cammy-

How about this template?
Do you like it?
I don't know how to enable comments.
Can anyone help me?

XOXO
-Cammy-

I'm officially 20 today.
Not only that, I finally create a blog as my birthday gift.

OMG!
I finally have a blog!

XOXO
-Cammy-