I've stumbled upon my ex-bestfriend's blog just now.
Suddenly all the pains that she has inflicted on me during our high school days come to mind.
My heart is full of anger and rage.
Though I'm happy with my current life, I can't forget what she did to me.
My heart and my life were torn apart, scattered by pieces.
Worse when I couldn't focus for SPM.
Lucky me I got good result and now am living a bright future.
Thanks to Mummy whom once I hated most, for bringing sunshine to my life at that moment.
Because of that ex-bestfriend, I never had and still don't have a real bestfriend.
I can never make myself to believe and love friends more than I should.
My shopping friends are just friends, people whom I share my happiness, but never my sadness.
I've learnt not to reveal everything about me because I believe now that people will bite.
I hate her for everything that has happened to me.
I wasted a bit of my high school life only to figure out what went wrong with our friendship.
I didn't only ask other people, but I also went to see her just to clear things out.
She didn't have the answers, she hated me, she betrayed me, she deceived me and yet she didn't know what made her act like that.
It was all my bitter past.
I've never thought of her, not even once after I finished high school.
And just now, I unconsciously viewed her blog while blogwalking.
Thank God I saw nothing about her that's able to tear my heart apart.
I'm happy with my life.
I hate her but I'm happy seeing and reading about her life.
She has everything and yet she has nothing.

XOXO
-Cammy-

date Monday, January 4, 2010

4 people love me to “Anger and Rage, Please Go Away”

  1. fahmi
    January 4, 2010 at 4:46 PM

    i'm symphaty 4 u coz u had been through hard time..but again that time u stil young rite! so, it's normal 2 make mistake..(sori 4 my broken english :)

  1. Cammy
    January 4, 2010 at 4:56 PM

    cammy - fahmi
    thanks a lot fahmi.
    you're absolutely right.
    i was too young and i easily believed people during that time.
    it's ok. u can type in malay as well.

  1. .miss d'ieyna.
    January 4, 2010 at 5:07 PM

    cammy..

    be strong ok..
    i pun ada pengalaman mcm u juga.
    mmg sakit..but life must go on..
    so,forget the past..
    enjoy ur life now dear..;)

  1. Cammy
    January 11, 2010 at 10:03 PM

    cammy - ieyna
    thanks babe.
    that's just my past.
    i'm happy now.
    :)