Say Hello to Me

The date was just a date! Period.

It was okay, not that bad but I don't think I'm ready for a new relationship. With the "digantung tak bertali" status, I don't know what to decide. Besides, I wasn't that comfortable with my date just now.

Perhaps, I'm so used with my old guy but I don't know his real feeling towards me. Is he still loving me? Does he need me? I have no idea.

Mummy many times said I should get myself to know more people. She doesn't want me to only be surrounded with familiar faces every single day. I'm of course aware of her attitude towards my so-called boyfriend.

She has gone through a lot with her husband before, and she doesn't want me to fall for the wrong person. Sometimes it's hard to be me, a person who lives in this kind of family, life and relationship. If only I have a 'real' father whom I can really call father.

Enough. Good night.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Hello readers and visitors!

I've just reached home from college. It was a busy day today since the second half of this semester has started. I went to several offices just to ensure, clarify and confirm my student status. It's a normal routine actually each time I start my days after mid-sem break.

All assignments were submitted this morning to respected lecturers and at the moment, I got nothing academic to do. My first presentation will only begin in two weeks time and I'm done with my Powerpoint slides. I'm an advanced student. Hahaha...

I got a date tonight and wish me luck! Have a happy day everyone. ;D

XOXO
-Cammy-

Life's so boring and I really need to go out but everyone else is very busy with his/her loved ones. I love being single but sometimes it feels really hurt especially when I have nobody to accompany me. It sounds selfish, I know.

I no longer have many things to talk about since I haven't gone out for days. My whole life now is surrounded by activities and works. I miss him. I shouldn't label myself as single since I'm still his. I don't know our true status. He gets jealous easily, he hates to see me with someone else but he doesn't confess his love.

How could I believe him when he tells me he needs me? He needs me but he never acts like one. I hate falling in love because it makes me weak in everything. Sorry. I'm not okay now. I wanna sleep early and forget everything.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Hello lagi sekali! Hari ni I tak berapa sibuk (tipu sikit) so I nak update blog banyak-banyak. Mummy keluar beli lunch so I can use a bit of my time for this blog. She won't get mad, I know.

What's your plan today? Mummy wants me to tag along to open houses organised by her staffs. Will they give me angpows? I haven't yet married so I should get angpows. Hehe... The money is definitely not what matters most, I just wanna go out and have some fun out of this busyness.

I also wanna catch a movie. I'm looking forward to watch Johnny Depp in Alice in Wonderland, he's so masculine!!! Need to ask few friends, maybe we can hangout ramai-ramai without pasangan masing-masing. Haha... A single person always acts this way I guess.

To be frank, I'm sick with some friends of mine who like to bring their partners along everytime we plan to spend time together. It's okay to know new people but it's not okay when the partners do not want their loved ones to mingle around.

If you want to lovey dovey, don't do it in front of me. Find a place for both of you. If you wanna join us, please socialise more. We don't expect you to be silent all the time when you choose to hangout with us. Pelik kan but some people are like that so just ignore them.

I'm gonna get myself a drink. Will update more later. Bye.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Hello. Bertemu lagi di blog saya. Hehe... such a funny intro. I know I dah lama tak update blog tapi I betul-betul tak ada masa free. Setiap hari pergi class, selesaikan kerja-kerja I dan balik rumah.

Bila dah sampai rumah, I tak berehat pun sebab ada banyak kerja dah menunggu. Selain dari kerja I sendiri, I tolong Mummy with her work since she got a project for her company and she needs ideas from a younger person like me. I'm young! No perasan here. Hehe...

Basically, that's the cycle of my life at the moment. Tired? 100 percent! But I'm okay with anything related to my family. I'm willing to give my all for Mummy since she's the only person that I treasure much. Never ask me about my father, I never own one!

I'm happy with my life now and I hope all of you who are visiting this blog are happy also with whatever you do. Happy CNY!

XOXO
-Cammy-

I geram lah. Geram dengan masa yang tak pernah cukup.
I've planned to update this blog regularly, but my time is so precious.
It's test season now at my college hence I'm so busy sleeping while studying. =p
Can I stop blogging? For good.
I love this blog and I love writing so much.
But then I have no time to even update a short entry.
Am actually holding an academic book now. ;)
Have a happy day. Bye.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Hello!
Have just come back from college.
So tired today.
Had lunch alone at college cafe.
How are you guys today? Better? Good? Great?
I'm still happy and I hope I can retain this happiness.
I wanna catch a movie with Mummy tonight.
She said she got a surprise for me.
Very curious now. =p
I've cashed out my Nuffnang money.
Don't know when can I get the cheque.
I told Mummy already about this blog, and as expected, she didn't like it.
I asked her to read and value my contents.
She seemed okay I guess as I didn't talk much about myself and my family.
I know I've been writing about me and Mummy, but I never gave any clue or hint that can make people know who I am.
Mummy said she's okay with this blog, but no self pictures should be shown.
Got it Mummy!
There's a story beyond her rules.
I'll narrate it down when the time comes.
Happy Wednesday everyone.
Take a very good care of yourself.
Value what and who you have. :)

XOXO
-Cammy-

OMG!
I'm so happy today.
Many good things happened.
I should thank God for everything, I could never gain anything without His blessing.
Someone who decided to despise me and throw me away from his life suddenly came back.
Just because he heard rumours that I've met someone else.
So childish! I care less about love relationship.
It counts the least in my life at the moment.
Got so much works to do and so many things to deal with.
I don't even have time for myself, how could I spare my time with other people?
If you want to hate me, go on.
I've tried my best to be the best for someone who perceived himself as the best like you.
But, you never saw my sacrifices and whatever I did for you.
You only knew how to put the blame on me.
You did know that Mummy never approved our relationship but I turned her down so many times just for you.
Just because of my simple mistake, you walked away.
Wait! Did I make a mistake? No, I don't think so.
I chose my path, and you've chosen yours, so we're equal now.
But, I'm happy after knowing that you were jealous of someone else who didn't even exist.
Funny!

XOXO
-Cammy-

I think I wanna be active in the blogging world.
Though life is kinda hard at the moment, I don't want it to affect my free time.
Instead of sleeping and whining and sighing, I wanna write again.
Hope this situation will remain. :)

XOXO
-Cammy-

Hello semua.
Hari ni I rasa nak taip dalam BM.
Okay kan?
Today I tak buat apa-apa, I duduk rumah saja.
I habiskan masa dengan watching 5 DVDs and now I sakit kepala.
Sengaja cari masalah.
Mummy minggu depan baru balik rumah.
I need to be independent again.
I don't want Mummy to worry about me.
I think I'm okay now being alone.
At least I got some friends who wanna spend time with me at home.
Btw, my new draft is approved. Thank God. :)
I need to get something to eat.
Take care all. Bye.

XOXO
-Cammy-

I know I haven't been updating for sometime.
There's so much work at the moment.
My plan to watch movies in cinema is still a plan.
Mummy is always busy with outstation and I have to do all chores alone.
My eating schedule, no, it's no longer a schedule.
I eat once a day, and sometimes I even miss my meal.
God, please let Mummy finish her work earlier.
Then we both can spend our time together.
I always feel like an orphan since Mummy chose to concentrate on her work.
It seems like blogging is not my world anymore.
I don't know what to blog about.
Without Mummy by my side, nothing looks right.
Mummy, come home.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Updating...
Happy Friday everyone!
Weekend is just around the corner.
My draft is rejected by the lecturer this morning.
The reason: the issue is not very contemporary.
Nvm, gonna spend the weekend working on another draft with classmates.
What's your plan for this weekend?
I wanna watch films in cinema, will check the schedule first.
I always spend time watching DVDs, I miss going to cinema. =p
Btw, I notice that the ads are seldom coming out nowadays, why hah?
Hope everything is okay.
I'm planning to sleep now, so sleepy and it's raining here.
Have fun. :)

XOXO
-Cammy-

Since I got nothing to do and I'm not at all sleepy, I wanna look for some interesting pictures on the internet.
Bear with me k?
It's so boring now and I'm hungry so I just wanna forget this feeling of hunger by wasting my time.
The pictures below are actually telling you my recent condition.

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Hello people!
Just woke up.
I don't know what went wrong with me.
I'm not a type of person who sleeps early and wakes up in the middle of the night like this.
I didn't do much since morning, but then I felt so tired.
I haven't eaten anything since lunch.
I'm so hungry now and there's nothing to eat at the kitchen.
I'll make a cup of hot chocolate later, just to kill this hunger.
And remember the first contest that I joined?
I didn't win. :(
Not my luck, yet, I guess.
It's okay since this is the first contest that I've joined as a blogger.
Happy though because it's like a platform for me to enter more contests.
Will go blogwalking and clicking ads in half an hour.
Wanna take a bath now, I'm still sleepy.
Wait k? :)

XOXO
-Cammy-

Hello people!
How are you today?
I'm good and happy btw. Hehe...
So tired, have just finished class at 11.
Had lunch with two friends until 12 and now, back at home.
Got one big assignment to do, must at least present a draft by this Friday.
I've watched Titanic (again =p) last night while waiting for Nuff to wake up.
The first film ever that successfully made me fall in love with the main actor.
Haha...
Lucky me, it was years ago. Jack Dawson is no longer attractive.
Review? Don't have to, you can find many from the internet.
Wanna watch Avatar in 3D, haven't yet got the chance.
James Cameron is really cool in making superb movies.
Btw, Avatar is criticised for being racist and the 3D spec is actually harmful to people's health.
Perhaps I should think twice before finally buy the ticket.
Have fun everyone.
Wanna read a novel now.

XOXO
-Cammy-

Remember the other day I told you that I wanted to blog on something in our mother tongue?
Here's the entry.
A million apologies if the title sounds controversial, but frankly, I never mean to be rude or racist.
I befriend all people from all ethnic groups, I never put a racial boundary in friendships.
Okay, back to my first intention i.e. to write in Malay.
I really hope I can convey my message clearly.
But, can I use both languages? Just allow me to do so, okay?
One fine day, a happy day I shall say, I went to fetch a friend at the LRT station.
While waiting for her, I saw a man who looked like a father and husband.
I guessed his age, perhaps around 30s.
Lelaki ini tengah bentang kain atas meja.
Kereta dia ada tepi jalan.
Selepas tu, dia angkat beberapa plastik yang di dalamnya ada bekas macam Tupperware dan letak di atas meja tadi.
Jadi saya anggap lelaki itu baru mahu mula berniaga.
Kereta saya berada berdekatan dengan meja lelaki tadi.
Saya rasa dia mahu jual kuih-kuih.
Sewaktu masih angkat plastik-plastik dari keretanya, datang 2 orang lelaki yang kalau kamu lihat, kamu pun tahu mereka Melayu.
Lelaki yang mahu jual kuih tadi juga Melayu.
Mereka bertiga seperti dalam keadaan yang agak serius, 2 lelaki Melayu itu tanya macam-macam pada peniaga tadi dan mereka menulis di atas kertas.
Muka lelaki berniaga nampak sedih.
Tiba-tiba saja dia angkat semula plastik-plastik tadi ke dalam kereta.
Dia mengemas kain, meja dan kerusi yang dia bawa.
Walaupun tak tahu hal sebenar tapi saya rasa sangat marah.
Saya fikir 2 lelaki Melayu tadi tak benarkan lelaki Melayu lagi seorang untuk berniaga di sana.
Tapi 2 lelaki Melayu itu tak pakai uniform pekerja LRT.
Saya tak tahu siapa mereka sebenarnya dan saya juga tak tahu apa hak mereka menghalang lelaki peniaga untuk berniaga di sana.
Hati saya sangat sedih sewaktu lihat lelaki peniaga angkat kembali barang-barangnya.
Saya turun dari kereta dan terus pergi ke 2 lelaki Melayu yang wajahnya agak sombong.
Saya terus bertanya kenapa lelaki peniaga angkat barang-barangnya selepas mereka datang berjumpa dia.
2 lelaki Melayu beritahu tak boleh berniaga di kawasan LRT dan mereka minta lelaki peniaga pergi tempat lain.
Saya sangat marah dan tak faham.
Kalau orang India atau Cina pasti mahu tolong sesama kaum.
Ada juga orang Melayu yang pasti mahu tolong orang Melayu juga.
Kawan-kawan saya semuanya datang dari kumpulan etnik yang berbeza tetapi kami selalu tolong-menolong dalam semua perkara.
Kenapa 2 lelaki Melayu yang bukan polis atau pekerja LRT itu tak mahu tolong lelaki Melayu yang mahu mencari rezeki tadi?
Pada saya, keadaan ini tak patut berlaku.
Tapi saya bukan orang kenamaan, saya tak dapat tolong lelaki Melayu tadi.
Sampai sekarang ini, saya masih tak dapat lupakan wajah sedihnya.

XOXO
-Cammy-